In the Blur of Everything

Long time no see. I've been hanging around my best buddies aka fanfiction, kdrama, and manga in the form of Strobe Edge and Naruto. But no matter how much I try to escape reality with these friends of mine, reality will come shaking and knocking and rattling. I'm seeing this in the form of the Japanese earthquake and tsunami (and its unstable nuclear plants), Rebecca Black's horriblehorrible song teaching us what comes before and after Friday, and my rejections to U of C's Collegiate Scholars Program and the Scholastics contest.

And to address my most pressing matter first...I had really put in a lot of effort for the CSP thing and had really thought that I had a good chance of at least getting an interview. But this turns out not to be the case. It kind of makes me think what went wrong sometime in my life. Why don't any of my teachers seem to like me? What is it that I lack? Last year I got rejected my UC's math program, mostly because Mr. Moran didn't like me. And before that, I got rejected from the Jack Kent Cooke scholarship thing. I don't understand what it is that I'm doing wrong.

Now my plans for summer are ruined. I wanted to do something fun, something new, something elsewhere. I guess CSP isn't any of that besides new, but I had really seen myself putting in the commitment to go to lectures regularly and knowing more than everyone else around me. I had high hopes built around CSP--I really did. Now I have to rely on my backup, solely being UC's math program. I didn't make any plans for other programs out-of-state; they cost a lot and would be a hassle to get there (round-trip plane tickets). UC keeps a record of you, and now that they've rejected me from the math program, how am I going to get in this year? Not to mention, my math teacher this year doesn't like me all too much either...

So I've been on a Naruto-binge since last night, when I got the rejection letter. Everybody else seems to know where they're going, what they're doing. And the saddest thing is, I'm sure that there was a good chance that my friend applying for CSP got an interview. So sure. And maybe this makes me a bad person, but what depresses me most is not me being rejected but my friend getting accepted.

As for fanfiction, well, Naruto has great fanfics. And TV Tropes. Ohemgeeeee. There's a horde of fanfics both on FF.net and LJ and it's overwhelming. But I think I'll be able to do it. Many are epic-length, and that's a bit intimidating given the fact that I procrastinate and will never get around to finishing those. But this summer I'm setting it a goal and hoping that I'll be able to fulfill it. Afterwards, I'm thinking of writing a Naruto fanfic, as well as starting on a story I have in mind. It's fantasy, and probably a bit weird, but I'm thinking of ways to make it work.

As for kdrama, I'm currently watching Dream High. After my Naruto-binge, I've gotten hung up again on Dream High (I started it, stopped for Naruto, and continuing it again). I'm on episode 14, and I haven't watched it in a few weeks, which is again my procrastination/laziness in the works (I only have two episodes left). But then again, I'm thinking about convincing my friends to go to La Push this summer with me, and I want to get them to do a piano-flute-violin trio. I think it's going to be really fun, except the problem will be finding ways to get my friends to take up the challenge...

Yesterday, I explored my old home, Sapporo, on Google Maps. I don't remember much, but I think it's changed greatly. I hate that I no longer feel the familiar twinge in the center of my chest (nostalgia) whenever I catch a whiff of autumn-winter or winter-spring breeze. I only feel empty longing now in place of painful nostalgia when I stare out the window, and the light and atmosphere of the afternoon feels like a lazy Sunday with my bike in Japan.

...In any case, I'll post again soon.

So It Happened

Haha, the blizzard here just ended. I dunno how many inches, but the car by my house is pretty much entirely buried in snow. I would be eating ice cream at home like my AP Human Geography teacher, but there's no ice cream at home (just some cookie dough flavored ice cream from three years ago) and it's too cold to be eating ice cream. Everybody's so frazzled by the snow day; it's weird. In Japan, we regularly get around 2 feet of snow or more. It's a regular occurrence. :D

And I also realize that I haven't posted in a very long time. That's okay though, because I'm too wrapped in my life to do this anymore. So I'll just be posting occasionally if I have stuff to say. And which, I do, because I just started playing Club Penguin again! It cracks me up thinking about this because how can you expect someone this old like me to be playing a game made for little kids? I haven't been on that game in about 3 years, so my old account (plus my joint account with my friend) got deleted. -sigh- I had so much stuff on my old account. But going on again, it seems to me that a lot of things have changed. There are new games, and the old secret agency got destroyed and got replaced with a new one. Also, a lot of privileges are no longer available for all players. It's a little unfair. Club Penguin should learn when to draw the line. Now it seems that regular players barely are able to enjoy anything on the game, whereas the members get to do everything. Like they say, money can buy almost anything. 

It annoys me because you can tell that almost all the players on CP are members now. And there are achievements now, and many of them regularly players can't get because they are member's only. In January, CP also opened a new "Wilderness Expedition" and nonmembers couldn't do anything much to participate in it! Games and costumes, as well as igloo decorating have all been limited. Nonmembers can't buy any clothes whatsoever (only backgrounds and colors) and they can't decorate their igloos anymore. Parts of games are now limited to members only. I still remember back in the day when I got full access to everything, and the divide of privileges in the game wasn't large. Sure, parents are paying for a bunch of pixels and in return, their children feel exclusivity, but I think that overall, CP can do a better job balancing privileges between nonmembers and members.

But my rant about the new Club Penguin aside, it's Chinese New Year's Eve! I looked up a calendar from when I was born, and now I know I was born on a Wednesday! And now I know my lunar birthday too. But it is that time of the year, so my family will be eating dumplings, giving out red envelopes, calling relatives, and watching the Chinese New Year's show online (since we don't have a Chinese channel).

Happy Snow Day!

New Year's

So today that I am writing this, it is 1/9/11. But as I was posting my Isles of the Blest page, I saw my archives and they were grouped by year, and there were no uncollapsed posts for 2011. Which made me sad. So now I am posting this ridiculously late post for New Year's, scheduled to be posted eight days into the past. (The internet these days...)

So here you go: Happy New Year's.

But know that I hate the new year.
Always.

Love is a Song, Love is a Song, Love is a Song.

Freshman city champ! :) 14:41, I think, with about 7:20 splits.
And...
I've been made an alternate for varsity, for regionals/sectionals/state (if we qualify). It totally surprised me, when we came to the "final" meeting to turn in our uniforms, turns out I'm still in season for two more weeks. Which is great, I mean, I'm happy that Geiger sees enough potential in me for me to be varsity next year, but I kinda made other plans. Like, you know, math team? Piano? (speaking of which, I have to accompany my friend who's playing flute for her exam which is in NOVEMBER.) And I have to design for the school directory, yearbook...

My new Yamaha U1 piano is coming next Saturday. :D

 
My new favorite song. Currently I love all U2-ish sounding songs. -squee-

YES!

Check this out here :
http://thesmartyowl.blogspot.com/2010/10/star-crossed-contest.html

I'm crossing my fingers.

And my toes.


My research for an awesome dSLR still continues.
But also on my list is the...
Sorry, lost that train of thought.
I think I might've meant to say that I still hae a Chem test to study for, and that I'm worried about how badly I failed my AP Human Geo quiz. Afterall, I did get 66.6 (devil's number, much?) on my last one. Haha.

-JY

Homework is going to kill me. And then my mom, if she finds a way to revive me.

Alright, so, I friended some old acquaintances on Facebook for the wrong reasons.

Alright, that didn't sound right

I friended some old acquaintances on Facebook because I LURVE their pictures.

Nah.

I friended some old acquaintances on Facebook because I love their picture quality, and most importantly, I love their photo editting skills. And their photography skills. SKILLZZZ.


So now I'm telling my mom that I should really get a digital SLR camera.
Yush, I am doing my research. At the moment, I'm looking at the Nikon D3000, I guess, since I know it takes great pictures and its cheap. But I think I'll have to do more research on different lenses, ISO, exposure, and apeture, because I really want to figure out how to take those really cool photos at night with flash.

Well. I had an interesting title, but it evaporated.

So I had a lot to say, except after doing 24 200m's, they kind of evaporated.
But this post is my attempt at remembering:

Recently, I was Facebook-stalking (haha. I wonder who's actually going to take me seriously when I say this) and I saw Jack Wanberg's photos with Annamalise. And it totally made me have an empathy-moment (I mean, honestly, it doesn't happen a lot, and why of all people, them?). But it happened so... I just felt so sad for them, because they were really good friends before, and had a good relationship after, and then I see their status'... SINGLE. I DUNNO!!! ;_; It just made me sad.

And my American lit. teacher is McCarthy... When I first saw his name, I went, "Hey..." There was this feeling, not of familiarity, but a cross between dejavu and I'm-pretty-sure-I-know-you-from-somewhere. Recently I realized what and why. It's because his name reminds me of McCarthyism! :D I had a major "OHHH!" moment when I realized. Which caused me to brain fart on my math problem.

Today after school, I was at my locker, and I saw a girl. YES, I SAW A GIRL. I won't name her, but she's a girl (YES, SHE'S A GIRL!), is a year older, is a fracky, is in my AP Chinese Lang.+Culture class, has awesome carving skills (my goshness, I saw photos on FB and she carved words out of pencil lead!), is good at percussion, has awesome baking skills too, and has awesome friends. Now, I'm not going to say anything about my current friends, I'm not implying anything either, but she has awesome friends. It just makes me wonder, if I had gone to Payton, would WY people still have tried to hang out with me some weekends? I dunno, movies, parties... And lastly, the reason why I say that she has awesome friends, is because ATM, I have a puppy crush--

Yes, a puppy crush and nothing more. I have to make this fact clear in black and white, because I just KNOW that confessing this is going to come back and bite me in the arse. But I just have to say this, for a personal record, because when I come back to this blog in ten years, I'll see it and laugh at myself. Now, I certainly do not want this fact out. This blog is public, but please try to keep this as private as possible. The only reason why I'm letting this out is because I trust you guys enough. I'm giving you guys the benefit of the doubt. I've read way too many cliche books about blogs SOMEHOW being found out. Not pretty.

--on N.o.a.h. S.e.b.e.k. Yes, because my socializing skills suck crap, so that's just it.

Third to lastly, for Alice's card, we should put, "You suck. But this game is too interesting."

Second to lastly, McCarthy's making us do a "Sinners in the Hands of an Angry God" blogpost, and I kinda (just kinda) want to draw a picture of a god with 26 hands (yes, because it has to be even, no?) blocking some sort of dam. That would be fun. But I don't think I can do it in one day. Sorry, I don't have enough time in my life to come home and just be able to finish homework and even do math team homework. -coughcough-

Finally, -whew, finally- I'm just going to drop off a little tiny fact:

I know why and how Sheila got mad at me for my controversial blogposts back in March. (You can look for them again, but sorry m'dears, I've saved them as drafts. :) )

-JY-

Pictures from trip

I need a picture of me doing something over the summer for AP Human extra credit, and so I’ve uploaded the better pictures of me throughout the whole trip. You know, the ones where I don’t particularly look too stupid, like all the other ones. So, I’d like your top three, or top two (or maybe top one, which would make everything easier).

Knock yourself out.

View Full Album

-Julie

EDIT: I was a little bit curious, so I clicked on my blog stats. And now I feel stupid I didn’t click it earlier, when the a-hole stalker decided to drop by.

+ PRTSC 1
+ PRTSC 2

PS. I didn’t know I had dimples until I smiled really hard at myself in the mirror.